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淡淡的柠檬茶In God we trust May 19 ...好久不来了...
最近好忙,除了永远写不完的作业以外,还有中文剧。
进度满快的,一个星期就完成了五分之四的内容。
大家在一起为一件事情努力的感觉真不错,有什么意见就随便说,永远不会担心有谁会生气,耍脾气。尤其是音乐,和音乐在一起。
音乐的力量果然是无穷的阿。在交响乐团排练厅就我们四个。由于一直没有睡好觉,我靠在椅子上面都要睡着了,笨qq和成就在钢琴前面合练那几首曲子,听着主题曲的发展,我都快哭出来了。感动人的不仅仅是音乐。
以后可能就很少有人能这样一同努力了吧。周日下午暖洋洋的阳光下,大家一起走在绿色的校园内。或者是在安静的排练厅内,或者是在艺术馆,往悄的头上浇水,或者边骑车边拍摄...
际遇,不仅仅是在戏里面的。
快快拍完,剪完,做出来。然后大家很high的去吃一顿饭。然后很high地在高中楼大厅大喊着公映。哇!好想抱抱你们我的伙伴! February 14 Happy Valentine~~看到一首感觉蛮好的情诗~~发上来 Rose is red, Violet blue. Carnation is sweet, And so are you... 庆祝一个人的情人节~~ January 21 期末考试...貌似好久都没有更新了,真是不敬业阿...不过最近大家上网也都少了,而且一个个都去百度了... 期末怎么就一点也没心情复习呢?虽然说每次都说考得差吧,但也从来没有差到哪里去过,明天英语和生物,懒得der了... 话说最近可真冷,南方雪下得那叫一个大,北京就安安静静地下了场小雪,想起以前冬天学德语的时候,下雪还没事闲的钻进操场去写了句Ich liebe dich。真是的,总是自以为喜欢着谁,而且说得很认真很痴迷的样子,最恶心的是每次都说出来,其实只不过是想找个依托,然后看着看着就腻了。我还能干什么呢?连说服自己去喜欢一个人都没有力气了。 老爸回了趟福建,带来了两个水仙。爷爷奶奶现在帮他们照顾我妹妹去了,没人来削水仙了,于是我吭哧吭哧把水仙给削了,但愿能在春节开花~~~ 哎呀呀最近还有一件很郁闷的事情,就是去把耽搁好长时间的膝盖给看了。拍核磁共振,果然是半月板碎了,果然要做手术。但是又不想做,谁愿意没事闲的扔块骨头阿。我可算体会到了关节炎是什么滋味,不过好的是一要下雪我就能未卜先知,恩,还有可以大言不惭地去坐电梯了,不过至今还没有被人查问过。我就想不明白初二我就坐了一次电梯怎么就那么背被抓了呢。 还有...在听Annett Louisan的歌。一个很可爱的德国女孩。但是Tamy说歌词不太pure.发一首上来吧。 Eve meine Freundin Eve ist aktiv My friend Eve is active 其实德语还是很好学的,和英语很像。 还有,最近看了Edward Norton的以前的一些电影,发现他挺强的。。。 November 19 。。。是不是人过日子都是按比例过的呢。 小时候每天都好长,现在觉得好短好短。睁眼,起床,去学校,上课,回来,睡觉。 每天都是一样的,一天天过去高中都快过一半了,想干的事情,没有干了的。所以是不是时间都是按比例过的呢?我们越大,觉得时间越短。 总觉得以前是美好的,彩色的,现在是黑白的。但是又觉得总这么觉得也不好。 最近总是在生病,病两个星期好,然后接着病。于是自入秋以来得了三场病。 今天去看球了。居然踢赢了alevel。不敢想象。什么都不再预料之内,不过还是挺开心的。 最近什么都是晕头转向的。 最近语言表达能力有显著下降。 不说了。 什么破日子啊。 September 09 Bruno PelletierBruno Pelletier,1962年8月7日出生于加拿大的Charlesbourg,从青少年时代起,他对音乐的热爱就促使他开始在酒吧里演唱,并曾先后做过几个英语乐队的成员。 看看,我喜欢的歌手都是什么样的。那音色,那厚度,那音准,那音域,都不是一般人能比的。法语真的是世界上最美丽的语言~ 再看看人家的照片。哎~ September 02 Beau comme le soleilBeau comme le soleil Esmeralda: Il est beau comme le soleil Fleur-de-Lys: Il est beau comme le soleil Both / Les deux: Il est beau comme le soleil 借Notre Dame de Paris来听,好喜欢这个歌剧。 现在觉得法语好好听啊,有一种贵族的气质,要使用英文肯定没味道了。 August 28 暑假过去啦~暑假就这么要过去了,就这么晃过去了。 每一年都充满了信心,要在前一个星期把作业搞定,之后疯玩,满以为自己能够战胜惰性,今年也是。也同往年一样,作业到现在都写不完。人生啊,就两天了。反正都是写不完,以后干脆一开始狂玩,到最后再做,我才懒得战胜所谓惰性呢。自制力差的人...但是还有这样的暑假吗? 天天去老妈的办公室,发现同事很有意思,要是一直这样下去多好啊~看一看喜欢的碟,喜欢的书,中午可以闲聊,不用很着急地赶着干什么事。 紧接着就是艰苦的两年。两年以后也不会不艰苦。享受现在的时光吧。 August 15 不能说的秘密~ 喜欢不能说的秘密~校园的气氛太美妙了,真是梦幻~如果能让我在那里读书,我宁愿放弃现在拥有的成绩~和音乐专专心心地认真相处一辈子。 现在没有看到那样的地方啊~尤其是那个琴房,走廊~ 更喜欢两个人默契地一起弹琴的感觉。四手联弹就已经不错了,更奇妙的是竟然两个人可以从没有配合过就插着手,在旧钢琴上,弹出那样的曲子。那是怎样的一种默契啊~ 一想就要哭,这种美丽的地方不曾经也是我的梦吗?这种练琴,骑单车,看海,翻墙的生活不也是我心中最完美的吗?可以简简单单地和喜欢的人弹琴不是我的希望吗?这些都未曾得到,我现在在做什么呢? 也许这些本来就是不现实的浪漫,也许所有的想法只是胡思乱想,如果真的有这种生活,几天之后就会腻,但就是不能想象,生活缺少了色彩和梦想。 为什么想写点什么东西都写不出来呢?失败极了。好像这些年都没有干过什么想干的事,到最后甚至连想干的事都不知道是什么了。 发点谱子上来 这一首是secret 还有很多,比如雨豪和小伦斗琴的曲子,小雨和他的四手联弹。想要就找我啊~ August 04 回来啦~~那个课不是一般的变态,尤其是当一群更变态的高二16的坐在你后面时。
回来啦~可爱的家,现在看到家里地板上的小虫虫都觉得超可爱~谁让那边的所谓研究生宿舍,流行的宠物是蟑螂呢~还有在通往食堂的那条路上七零八落地吊着可爱的吊死鬼,学名尺蠖。那个食堂就是用这个减少我的饭量的。回来果然瘦了不少。另一个后遗症就是听谁说话都是河北口音,谁让河北保定的小同学们整天在宿舍旁边大声说话的。第一次在一个地方感受到了中国众多方言之精髓。
好久没看电影了,偶闻华星在放《南京》,超有爱国主义的,肯定也是倒胃口的片子。还是改天看周杰伦自导自演的那个片子吧。还有要去见帅哥,啊啊啊~
就这样了,接着养膘去。 July 23 搬~明天要搬到公主坟那边叔叔家了~每天都可以看到妹妹了~
妹妹由我来抱真是睡得踏实~~呵呵~~那帮大人都不行~~
怀念去年暑假也是住在那边,每天都可以很自由~~
有时候还会去玉渊潭~也不知道今年会变成什么样 July 17 暑假~去草原玩得不错~
可以再出去吗?
要是还是我组织就显得我太贪玩了~
怎么办呢?所以你来组织吧~去哪都行~海边~看日出~
你就这么说:高一暑假再不玩就到大学去了,你家长就会特积极了~ July 13 James Blunt - You Are BeautifulJames Blunt - You Are Beautiful
my life is brilliant my love is pure I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled at me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan. You're beautiful You're beautiful You're beautiful, it's true I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do. 'Cause I'll never be with you Yes, she caught my eye, As I walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Flying high. And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last till the end. You're beautiful You're beautiful You're beautiful, it's true I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do. 'Cause I'll never be with you (Na na na naaaa....) You're beautiful You're beautiful You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, when she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you. July 03 death... of the sparrowsIt has been too fast.
Before I could even realize what had come into my life, they've gone.
I feel guilty inside myself...
Life has been so unfair to the sparrows.
What if...
What if I didn't feel hot...
What if I didn't happen to ask for the air conditioner repaired...
What if I merely postpone the feeling to a week later...Then I may probably feed them up without difficulty and the never-born egg could be hatched...
What if the sparrow parents happen to set their nest in another family's air conditioner instead of mine...I'd rather they throw them away without any sympathy than see them suffer myself...
What if they didn't let me see their last struggle, their last breath...I wouldn't be so miserable...
What if...
I'm fully aware that in some situations, especially when death is concerned, the word "if" means nothing, but I just cannot stop imagine what my life and theirs would be like if their are alive...I've been told many times that instead of saying "I should have done..." or "I wish I did", a person should say "I'm glad that I've done that...I don't regret...", but I can't. I should have make the temperature higher, cause newly born sparrows are weak and there body temperature is 42degrees...I wish I feed them with eggs and milk, cause meat is too greasy and all kinds of grains too hard.
I can't stop thinking meaningless things like that...The sparrow parents must be very miserable when the two disasters fall on them, the loss of their nest and the loss of their three kids...And these are only for my own sake...What a sin...to murder indeliberately...What an awful feeling to imagine the three little darlings come back to seize me...and do what they think I did to them! And the parents... Will they forgive me?
Life is too crumbly and transparent in this large universe...and it never arouse any sympathy of the so-called Lord. When a life is gone, it's gone, never will it come back, never will it be mortal. I thought it the cruelist thing, but God make it suffer a great deal before it pass to another world, and he tortures the one beside it...If the life of a human being could have some kind of significance, a bird's life is almost worthless, its life track will never be memorized, after the death of its parents and me. Every life is nothing more than a thin straw. Thousands of millions born and thousands of millions pass, a majority without a mere mention or a trace. Millions die just the day they born. Others die afterwards. Nothing remains. I'm fortunate here for I could think all above about life, and I'll probably consider it a more natural way when I'm dying. But to my birds, it's all different. All they do in their short life is opening their cute yellow beak, waiting for their mother's coming, crying for food, breathe difficultly to maintain their brittle life... Their feather didn't even grow out, all I see over their skin was transparent film, their blood pipe and the food going down their throat when they swallow.
After writing these, I feel sort of release. An article of non-sense...Mother I love you... I wish you good health...
Life is too brittle...
I'll think about it tomorrow... July 01 sparrow~~not that Jack Sparrow今天收拾空调的时候发现空调坏了的原因是风扇里面被麻雀住了窝。
去年也是这样的。
但是今年发现了麻雀,小麻雀。
我这种喜欢动物的人当然是想要养大它们啦~不能把他们同烂鸟窝一起扔到垃圾桶里。
但是想起以前读过的一篇文章,说的是麻雀是自尊心很强的动物,宁愿饿死也不会被别人养大。
当时看了觉得特感人,特别佩服他们这种精神,但是现在很担心,如果他不让我养,怎么活下去呢。
用牛奶箱子作了一个窝,把那些烂草扔进去。
发现人类正在逐渐走进麻雀的生活,连它们的窝都是塑料布,胶条。
一会就要把窝挂出去了。但愿麻雀妈妈会进去抚养她的宝宝,但愿她不要以为这是个陷阱。
我是不是应该放一些米引诱她进去呢?
怎么办才能做到最好?我不想因为我的享受而使一些生命从此结束。 June 29 a story to be rememberedA young lady was waiting for her flight in the boarding room of a big airport.
As she would need to wait many hours, she decided to buy a book to spend her time. She also bought a packet of cookies.
She sat down in an armchair, in the VIP room of the airport, to rest and read in peace.
Beside the armchair where the packet of cookies lay, a man sat down in the next seat, opened his magazine and started reading.
When she took out the first cookie, the man took one also. She felt irritated but said nothing. She just thought:"What a nerve! If I was in the mood I would punch him for daring!"
For each cookie she took, the man took one too.
This was infuriating her but she didn't want to cause a scene.
When only one cookie remained, she thought:"ah...What this abusive man do now?"
Then, the man, taking the last cookie, divided it into half, giving her one half.
Ah! That was too much!
She was much too angry now!
I a huff, she took her book, her things and stormed to the boarding place.
When she sat down in her seat, inside the plane, she looked into her purse to take her eyeglasses, and, to her surprise, her packet of cookies was there, untouched, unopened!
She felt so ashamed!! She realized that she was wrong...
She had forgotten that her cookies were kept in her purse.
The man had divided his cookies with her, without feeling angered or bitter.
...while she had been very angry, thinking that she was dividing her cookies with him.
And now there was no chance to explain herself...nor to apologize."
There are 4 things that you cannot recover.
The stone...
....after the throw!
The word...
...after it's said!
The occasion...
...after the loss!
The time...
...after it's gone! June 25 啊~啊~~
我要再这么下去也得步入减肥大军了~
天又下雨啦~
但是没有下冰雹~
还是那么闷阿~
不想吃晚饭阿~
想吃布丁阿~
煮的奶茶太稀阿~
还是港式的好喝阿~
十字绣绣完了阿~
中午受打击了阿~
人生就是这样啊~
为什么会烤烤会烤说明上的题阿~ June 24 我喜欢绣十字绣~~打完题目,我突然想到,是不是如果我生在古代,我会是一个女红非常出色的大小姐,非常淑女的那种~~呵呵~~也真是奇怪了,我这种人竟然会喜欢十字绣~
其实也不是喜欢十字绣啦~~就是喜欢绣十字绣的感觉~
可以被一种很单纯的感情充斥着大脑,可以什么都不想,可以让整个世界都变成心情的那种颜色~~
要会考了,可是我没有心情复习,我知道学习是最重要的,我知道要对得起自己,对得起自己的未来,但是我就是不甘心自己的kid period和youth period都是这么灰白地度过~我的十六岁应该是特灿烂的~就像十字绣上面的花色一样~
绣阿~~加油~~把这个快点绣完就不会再耽误时间了~~但是我知道,绣完以后,我肯定还会去那个熟悉的地方,熟悉的小店,再买一个更大的来绣~
第二个十字绣绣成这样不错了,领悟也很多。比如看一个东西绣得怎么样不要看正面,要翻过去,看背面,那些交口,线头,线的轨迹。比如要从六股的线里面抽出一股,要用左手拿着一根的头,右手轻轻地把其他的捋下去。比如在绣一大块同样颜色的地方时,最好一列列地绣,从左上到右下这样绣下去,再从左下到右上这样绣上来,这样背面才非常整齐,像是一个个“一”字排在一起。比如线太长的时候每穿过一个孔就拉线会太浪费时间,最多穿过四个孔然后一起拉会好一些,但是后果是容易太用力把线拉断,容易打死结。比如穿过四个孔打死结了,我也不像以前那样前功尽弃了,我可以很精巧地把它解开...
看着从来不巧的手拿着针快速地穿梭着,看着自己大把大把的时间这样地流走,看着逐渐完整的图案和整齐的线,我觉得好开心,我不是在绣一个简单的十字绣,我是在编织我的心。
我变了很多对吗?不再是那个大大咧咧的小孩?
绣阿绣,绣到手都流血了,绣到手有铁锈味了,绣到针都没有光泽了,被氧化了~ June 21 会烤都复习差不多了吧~~明天提前庆祝一下高一会烤成功渡过哈~~
还有那个破游泳考试去死吧~~自由泳不如仰泳好玩~~那个老师不知道我曾经溺水过吗?居然还占50分
最后祝大家烤好,烤得愉快~~
P.S.最近有点语无伦次,大家会慢慢适应的。还有,你们都什么时候养成的看帖不会帖的习惯阿 June 20 ~~I have something in my heart and I need to express it out. If I keep it in my heart, I'll be mad and maybe I'll lose the part of my heart which contains my mildest emotions. Maybe loving someone is just a way of expressing myself, and maybe it's a wrong way. Being totally into him is what I choose, and I suffered from it. This crush won't last long, and I'll try to control myself and keep me away from him. I should have dedicate myself into a religion, the love for god can't be turned down and I'll never be frustrated unlike now.
Babe, I'll try to get on without you. Thank you for all the merriment you gave me and for all the sorrows. June 19 谢谢你谢谢你总是在我走向死胡同的时候把我拉出来,真得谢谢你,我的朋友,谢谢你下午对我说的话。
我一定不要逃避现实,我一定要知道,我的人生,大部分都是我自己,别人占的比重再大,也不可能大过自己。
不要整天发呆想他了,不要做这种对谁都没有意义的事,不要因为他的一个眼神或者动作就联想丰富了。
喜欢谁在现在看来事情可能很大,但是以后看来,很可能只是小事一件。
喜欢他是让我开心的,如果不开心大过了开心,就不要喜欢他了。
要知道满足,要知道自己想要什么。
要学会宽容,不要拿别人的错误惩罚别人,不要拿别人的错误惩罚自己,不要拿自己的错误惩罚别人,不要拿自己的错误惩罚自己。
况且,这件事没有什么人做错了。
嗯,我一定不要闲得没事瞎感伤了,少年不知愁滋味阿,要把青春活得有点效率。
抹去眼泪,我要加油~~哈哈~~ June 18 今天的想法~~今天放学背着书包和妈妈一起走,突然她说:“丹丹,从你的后备箱里把表拿出来。”当时我都晕倒了~~这个可爱疯狂的女司机~~
中午去看他们踢球,不好看~~没水平~~记得去年暑假我逃到叔叔婶婶家里住,上午去上老邪教,下午去上戴尔新概念,中午在黑罗家休息~~时不时和他们去玉渊潭逛逛~~真是一段开心的时光。还记得玉渊潭旁边的宋庆龄儿童博物馆吗?那是我们美好的乐园。在旁边有一些荒废了的游乐设施,有点像deserted kindergarden有点像军事训练处,到处是铁丝和网。我们在那个自动(自己动的)旋转木马上面体验那种离心力,和那种互相信任的感情~~还有那个大大的地球半球,是不是还会让我们从上面滑下去?那些砖砌的圆圈,一个比一个小,钻过去,看谁钻到最后。
说跑题了,晚上会和炜炜一起,很开心地打QQ堂,他个小不点,不仅踢球好,电脑还不错。小脸臭臭的看着就想捏。有时候和他一起到小区里面踢球(虽然说我不会踢吧),小P孩经常欺负我,黑黑的脸诡异的一笑,我怎么努力抢都抢不到球~~不过还是学到很多东西,比如那个什么马赛回转还是他教我的呢~~如今也荒废了~~虽然是弟弟,他还是很照顾我呢~~敏感的孩子,下着棋突然盯着我不动,神秘兮兮的,还老把很久以前开的玩笑拿出来问我是不是故意气他~~呵呵~~和他一起很开心~~可惜他今年就要去美国了,暑假不能一起玩了~~
炜炜,其实很想和你说的,你那么聪明不要用在追女孩子上面了~~初二应该好好学习嘛~~再说梦阳肯定也是喜欢你的~~还有对爸爸妈妈要好一点。姐姐给你发的短信你都看到了么?他们真的不理解你,但是他们的心是善良的,这就够了~~有什么事情找朋友倾诉或者去打跆拳道也好啊~~还有,不要老和那些不务正业的朋友混在一起了,他们抽烟喝酒,我不希望你的身体被搞垮~~虽然高考不是通往成功唯一的道路,但是如果你在自己的青春养成了这种不为自己应该做的事而努力的话,如果以后有各种好机会(姐姐相信对于你肯定是有的),也没有办法集中自己的经历去做了。不要吃宝宝的醋拉,我很喜欢小妹妹,我也很喜欢你~~没有可比性的~希望下次去婶婶家看宝宝时候还能见到你哦~ June 17 never forget after end记得初三的时候经常听maroon5的歌,有一首很不起眼的叫做the sweatest goodbye。其中一句歌词我很喜欢,if it never ends then when do we start。也许就是这样,缘分本来就是一个圈圈,没有结束,开始也没有意义。
We're all sentimental and sensitive girls, we know what each other think and see ourselves in one another's eyes. Sometimes I think it's better to be seperated, in order to get our friendship away from rotting.
It's better to conceal the real emotion or I'll cry out. So I stop here. |
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